Which one worked?

I've attempted all the forms of meditation in this course, and I have not been able to sit still long enough or clear my mind to practice loving-kindness or clear mind.

Well I'm sure all the other practices are just as beneficial they weren't just my cup of tea... I just couldn't settle down and clear my mind for the full affect.  Now I really enjoyed the Visualization exercise.. I enjoyed thinking about good times in my life.  That is something that I need to do more often; think about the good things that go on in my life and not just think of the negative days.  

It's not really my thing!

This past week as been rather productive and I have discovered a few things about myself; first off I am not ready to practice loving kindness and secondly ... I really do need to find away to try.

Multiple times this week I tried to sit down and relax and slip into a mediative state.. it was a BIG NO GO.  I'm open to any suggestions on how I can attempt this. :-)

I actually like the quote "One cannot lead another where one has not gone himself"  ... I interpret this quote  as being how can I tell someone how they need to live a peaceful life.. when I can seem to do it myself.  LOL.. Rather hypocritical if you ask me.  So if I find a practitioner that is willing to work with me.. I will take to them a little more if I know they've done the same things.

To get angry or not

It's only Tuesday and it's been a rather productive week, I've had to watch a friendship crumble between two good friends over a trivial matter and then on top of that sit down a meditate and write about it.  LOL  

I managed to find a quiet place and sit down and meditate for a little while today.  I turned off the TV and the lights and lighted a candle; I then laid back on and relaxed.  I thought about people I have made angry, people who have made me angry and things that I honestly need to take care of. 

By practicing meditation and being able to keep a clear head I'll be able to relax and not take other people's ignorance to heart.  Just brush it off. I honestly wish I could do more of that.  LOL 

Teflon Thoughts..

Well this past week has been on heck of a week!  My inbox at work is almost cleared out and to think I wanted to just clear it out by doing the unethical way and tossing it in the waste bin!  Wishful thinking!  :-)   Just keep telling myself that Rome wasn’t built in a day. 

I live in a very … um.. busy home.  J  You would find a needle the haystack before finding a quiet place to meditate; so I tried a different method this time around. 

I attempted to practice the Loving Kindness method and the Subtle Mind by going for a run in a quiet park… the park was active with other people.. But it was quiet, I was able to find some peace with everything that has been going on in my life and see some good in it and I was able to let some of the trivial things go. 

When we where tasked last week with the Loving Kindness meditation I was not emotionally and mentally ready to let go of the stress that I had in my life, I had entirely too much going on in my life, I needed that stress to keep going and get things complete.  This past week I was playing catch up on everything that I had ignored while I was home dealing with family issues; but this weekend I was able to let some things go while I went for a run in the park, I made peace with my Grandmother’s passing and my letting my almost perfect GPA slip (that has never sat well with me) and I know I can’t always keep a perfect grade and I’m just going to have to deal with it and keep on moving… So I can say I did a little bit better with the Subtle Mind meditation.  J