This has not been a week that I would normally want to talk about with other people, but with ths week's reading and blog assignment it almost seems necessary.
My maternal grandmother passed away last week after being ill for the last 18 months, so I had to take emergency leave and be with my mother during this hard time. So on my way back to Virginia Beach the other day I finally had a chance to catch up on some reading and I attempted to meditate for at least 10 minutes; I couldn't do it!! I couldn't get my mind to stick to the plan and all it wanted to do was think of everything that I had to catch up on.. work and school .... it was almost overwhelming. I had thoughts of dropping classes this semester and then thoughts of just put your big girl panties on and suck it up.
I honestly enjoyed everything on our reading list this week and I will continue to practice on the meditation!! Hey you’re only defeated if you admit to it right. J
Jessica,
ReplyDeleteI am so very sorry to hear about your grandmother. My condolences to you and your family. I think it's quite understandable that you weren't able to quiet your mind. You have a lot going on just with dealing with grief. I'm completely overwhelmed with this term and regret that I took two 400 level core classes at the same time. I didn't have a death in the family so I can only imagine how you feel. I don't want you to give up trying to meditate or taking care of your body, mind and spirit. I admire your courage and strength to work through your grief and continue your school work. BRAVA! Good luck, good skill and God bless you!
Christine
Hi Jessica,
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry about your loss. I think this overwhelming feeling is so normal it is part of the grieving process, so don't be so hard on yourself just take a big breath and create a "to do list" and take one thing at a time. I can understand how it can be difficult to do a meditaion in your present circumstances. I myself could not do the meditation but for other reasons, I was bothered by the voices, I did not find the voices soothing enough to relax. I felf bad I could not do it because the concept was good but maybe next time.
Take one day at a time and have a better week.
Claudia B.